We have a feeling that there are two identities in us.
One is the presence or awareness as we said before.There is also a person in us who is nothing but the presence with a psychological identification that it is a body-mind thing.
It is crucial to understand that it is presence itself that has been modified into this limited role of a person. Problem comes when the unmodified presence forgets itself after doing this identification!!!. This is the state from which we have started our lives. So since it has forgotten itself and the person in us cries for help all the while we never have the time nor the intelligence to look for something from which the person itself was created. We are so intimate with our own personhood than with our true nature . That is why we live as persons.
If we, the presence can understand that we have forgotten ourselves and taken our identity to be something else, we can see light. Enquire with your own fraudulent identity whether it is the true one?. It would fail to answer, but even this practice of asking whether i am truly what i think i am is enough to nullify the person. This is because you are shaking the foundation of the person and asking whether he exists or not. If he doesn't exist in the first place , how can the worries, desires actions etc make sense?. Personhood is like a apparition now here now not here as in deep sleep. A fleeting sense of wrong notions.
Take any problem in your life ask yourself whether it is a concern of the person in you, or the presence in you. You would always get the answer that it is only a concern of the person not the presence. The presence needs nothing, cries at nothing and never is disturbed. The truth dawns on you when you have dropped the identification of a person and you exist as just the presence which is conscious of itself.
You have glimpse of the presence when you have moments of just being . But very quickly because of your vasanas, you rock back to your person. The person is trying to find a foot hold to stand amidst these sea of changes.
Suppose i am working somewhere. And i am so engaged in the work. Suddenly someone calls my name. I turn my head instantly. I never have to think "I am Renjith I am Renjith" to do that. We instinctively know that I am so and so. Just like that there is something even more basic that that i know, and it is that I exist.
Now analyze this further . How do i know that i exist?. It is a knowledge ingrained you would say. Not something i learnt by going to school. Nobody in school teaches you that . You just know. No moment in time comes where this feeling is lost. Have you?. Rain and shine, years have passed, this pure feeling that was there is still the same. It is not something we had to learn. Even learning that "I am Renjith" i had to learn. My parents, my friends, teachers etc started calling me and i had to go through a process of learning that. But the fact that i exist nobody taught me and yet i know.
Now you have a feeling about it , ask yourself this simple question ?. Who knows this fact?. Is it your body or mind? It cannot be the body you know that since body has no sensations like an identity. It cannot be the mind as well .Why?. Mind is just a collection of thoughts. We start thinking only after a certain age around 1-2 years. So even before that children do know that " I am" as pure conscious beings. Their identity has not been meta-morphed. However they lack a fundamental trait.They are not self aware that they are aware. They are aware and they live only in the moment.
Just probe deep within you get the feeling of "I am". You can see that this pure feeling doesnt have any qualities. It is niether male not female. It is not anybody. It is always with us.
The height of consciousness comes when your awareness is aware of itself and you have completely dropped your person from you.
Therefore you are nothing but a field of consciousness . your focus on your boundaries of your body blurs into a field. The pure consciousness which is filling everywhere and permeating everywhere is what is giving you the feeling of existence and its knowledge.
The knowledge about you as a presence alone removes your name from the identity. The name is a label only for the body-mind complex.
So then what happens to the pure person in you?. You ask . How does the person live?. It is indeed a valid question. As a human being you have to move around in this world. You can never be always in the exalted state , otherwise people would start believing that you are insane etc.
The answer is no. There is no problem with living. The only change that you observe is that you as a simple person doesnt exist. There is a total absence of mundane thoughts in your mind. They are almost limited to facts and they are only about the current moment. Why is this so?,
Suppose you go to a bank and ask about some loan. The bank clerk would reply that such and such is the condition for granting the loan speaking as though it is her money. So the bank clerk knows it is bank money and yet she speaks like her money protecting it etc. Just like that you move around in this world pretending to be a person while internally you know you are not a person, without the burden of keeping up to some arbitrary aims ambitions etc.
It is simple to understand . You exist only in this moment . Isnt it ?
Havent you died the last second. So since your identity is now only the presence(I exist) , your concerns are also about the present moment.
Now look at life now. In the current moment there is no problem. The problem is always in the future or past. A fear is about something in the future and when there is a fear about the future, there is anxiety now. If there are memories of the past glory, there is sorrow now and so on. The current moment if you have not died, you exist without any issues. Every moment is a current one for the presence. Because except for the current moment existence is not known. Your identity is the presence so you are in the moment.
If you look at animals or little children you would see this pure bliss of existing in the moment. A cat or a dog doesn't want to become like the neighbor's cat or dog. No hen tries to fly like a dove . They are conscious but don't have this body identification at all. I read somewhere that a dog was having a heart attack and when the doctor was holding it in his hands and looking at its eyes. The eyes never had any fear even though it knew something bad was happening. In this moment there is no problem, in the future i may die. who cares?
Now start looking at a second person. You discover that just as you as a person doesnt exist any longer, that person is also not a person but just pure consciousness. The differenca es or similarities are all concerning the person in that man. When that part is lost, how can there be any conflicts. There is only pure love. Love is nothing but the recognition that there are no two identities but a single identity.
With a complete absence of dual thoughts arent you feeling peaceful. The current moment has no issues as we have seen . You just are there and you know that . That is all.
When the presence has been identified as you, you are witnessing two things. You are witnessing things which are changing, while you yourself are not changing . So when that happens you can see changes as transitory. When you are in the changing world ,of person you are always resisting change struggling to keep up.
As Mooji said " The presence can be there without the person, but the person can never be without the presence ....Decide which is greater and become that.... Don't define what you are, because to define is to confine".
One is the presence or awareness as we said before.There is also a person in us who is nothing but the presence with a psychological identification that it is a body-mind thing.
It is crucial to understand that it is presence itself that has been modified into this limited role of a person. Problem comes when the unmodified presence forgets itself after doing this identification!!!. This is the state from which we have started our lives. So since it has forgotten itself and the person in us cries for help all the while we never have the time nor the intelligence to look for something from which the person itself was created. We are so intimate with our own personhood than with our true nature . That is why we live as persons.
If we, the presence can understand that we have forgotten ourselves and taken our identity to be something else, we can see light. Enquire with your own fraudulent identity whether it is the true one?. It would fail to answer, but even this practice of asking whether i am truly what i think i am is enough to nullify the person. This is because you are shaking the foundation of the person and asking whether he exists or not. If he doesn't exist in the first place , how can the worries, desires actions etc make sense?. Personhood is like a apparition now here now not here as in deep sleep. A fleeting sense of wrong notions.
Take any problem in your life ask yourself whether it is a concern of the person in you, or the presence in you. You would always get the answer that it is only a concern of the person not the presence. The presence needs nothing, cries at nothing and never is disturbed. The truth dawns on you when you have dropped the identification of a person and you exist as just the presence which is conscious of itself.
You have glimpse of the presence when you have moments of just being . But very quickly because of your vasanas, you rock back to your person. The person is trying to find a foot hold to stand amidst these sea of changes.
Suppose i am working somewhere. And i am so engaged in the work. Suddenly someone calls my name. I turn my head instantly. I never have to think "I am Renjith I am Renjith" to do that. We instinctively know that I am so and so. Just like that there is something even more basic that that i know, and it is that I exist.
Now analyze this further . How do i know that i exist?. It is a knowledge ingrained you would say. Not something i learnt by going to school. Nobody in school teaches you that . You just know. No moment in time comes where this feeling is lost. Have you?. Rain and shine, years have passed, this pure feeling that was there is still the same. It is not something we had to learn. Even learning that "I am Renjith" i had to learn. My parents, my friends, teachers etc started calling me and i had to go through a process of learning that. But the fact that i exist nobody taught me and yet i know.
Now you have a feeling about it , ask yourself this simple question ?. Who knows this fact?. Is it your body or mind? It cannot be the body you know that since body has no sensations like an identity. It cannot be the mind as well .Why?. Mind is just a collection of thoughts. We start thinking only after a certain age around 1-2 years. So even before that children do know that " I am" as pure conscious beings. Their identity has not been meta-morphed. However they lack a fundamental trait.They are not self aware that they are aware. They are aware and they live only in the moment.
Just probe deep within you get the feeling of "I am". You can see that this pure feeling doesnt have any qualities. It is niether male not female. It is not anybody. It is always with us.
The height of consciousness comes when your awareness is aware of itself and you have completely dropped your person from you.
Therefore you are nothing but a field of consciousness . your focus on your boundaries of your body blurs into a field. The pure consciousness which is filling everywhere and permeating everywhere is what is giving you the feeling of existence and its knowledge.
So then what happens to the pure person in you?. You ask . How does the person live?. It is indeed a valid question. As a human being you have to move around in this world. You can never be always in the exalted state , otherwise people would start believing that you are insane etc.
The answer is no. There is no problem with living. The only change that you observe is that you as a simple person doesnt exist. There is a total absence of mundane thoughts in your mind. They are almost limited to facts and they are only about the current moment. Why is this so?,
Suppose you go to a bank and ask about some loan. The bank clerk would reply that such and such is the condition for granting the loan speaking as though it is her money. So the bank clerk knows it is bank money and yet she speaks like her money protecting it etc. Just like that you move around in this world pretending to be a person while internally you know you are not a person, without the burden of keeping up to some arbitrary aims ambitions etc.
It is simple to understand . You exist only in this moment . Isnt it ?
Havent you died the last second. So since your identity is now only the presence(I exist) , your concerns are also about the present moment.
Now look at life now. In the current moment there is no problem. The problem is always in the future or past. A fear is about something in the future and when there is a fear about the future, there is anxiety now. If there are memories of the past glory, there is sorrow now and so on. The current moment if you have not died, you exist without any issues. Every moment is a current one for the presence. Because except for the current moment existence is not known. Your identity is the presence so you are in the moment.
If you look at animals or little children you would see this pure bliss of existing in the moment. A cat or a dog doesn't want to become like the neighbor's cat or dog. No hen tries to fly like a dove . They are conscious but don't have this body identification at all. I read somewhere that a dog was having a heart attack and when the doctor was holding it in his hands and looking at its eyes. The eyes never had any fear even though it knew something bad was happening. In this moment there is no problem, in the future i may die. who cares?
Now start looking at a second person. You discover that just as you as a person doesnt exist any longer, that person is also not a person but just pure consciousness. The differenca es or similarities are all concerning the person in that man. When that part is lost, how can there be any conflicts. There is only pure love. Love is nothing but the recognition that there are no two identities but a single identity.
With a complete absence of dual thoughts arent you feeling peaceful. The current moment has no issues as we have seen . You just are there and you know that . That is all.
When the presence has been identified as you, you are witnessing two things. You are witnessing things which are changing, while you yourself are not changing . So when that happens you can see changes as transitory. When you are in the changing world ,of person you are always resisting change struggling to keep up.
As Mooji said " The presence can be there without the person, but the person can never be without the presence ....Decide which is greater and become that.... Don't define what you are, because to define is to confine".
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