Every experience comes and goes. All through our life we go through so many experiences. Have you ever wondered what is common to all of them?. If you look at what is varying you can see lot. Some experiences are painful, some are wonderful, some are deeply disturbing , some encouraging. Our childhood , our games, our studies , our successes, our failures, many roles , so many vast range of experiences. Each involves so many players. Some of them we remember for ever and gives us a nice tingling sensation. Some fond memories. But what is common to all?.
The first feeling we get about the commonality is the sense of "I". It is the same I who has gone through all of these experiences whatever they are. Now who is this "I". Is it my body ? Is it my mind ?. We can see that neither satisfies us enough. The mind of today is not the same it was yesterday. The body has gone from childhood to youth to old age. So it is not the same. So the sense of I seems to puzzle us. If we accept that it is our body mind system, we will have to accept that it is not the same I that was there before. It is an "I" that is always changing. Cells die , thoughts come and go . So it is not the same . So who is this "I"?. If we accept it is an ever changing "I" it is not common to all our experiences. Just as the experiences have come and gone, this I has also come and gone. So perhaps nothing is permanent. Even this I is not permanent. At least we need to accept that this sense of "I" is not the common factor of all experiences in our life. A childhood body-mind is not possessed now. So that I is now the same as I that is there now. It is a different I that we are experiencing now.
When we analyze further , we do see something that is permanent and common to all our experience. That is the awareness. Now we ask ourselves . Is this awareness changing in all these experiences. You can see that it is not. The presence of awareness never changes . Whatever awareness you had when you were a child is the same that you have now. It is through which you know the body , the mind the thoughts emotions feelings anything. All experiences rise in this awareness. And yet it is not disturbed or changed by them. Come rain or shine the awareness is the same. It has neither gender nor any emotions or feelings. It is indeed the same all through our life. So the commonality of all experiences is the presence of awareness. Many roles have come and gone but awareness never assumes any of them. It just watches them. How did we neglect it ?. What happened to the poor awareness?. It has always been with us never changing never leaving us , and yet we neglected it for the sake of something that was changing and affecting us all the time.
This simple fact that awareness is the commonality and non changing aspect of all experience is enough to liberate us. It is what should have been called the "I". When i see it, i immediately see how all experiences have not affected me. All of them are just arising in me . I never change . By being myself , i can be liberated from all. What a delusion it all was?. Just by understanding who i really am is the only knowledge that is required.
What am i searching for?. What am I seeking in life?. What treasures and riches await me?. Where is the illusory happiness that i long for?. No experience can give me lasting happiness. No wealth can give me enough of riches. All looks promising only when i have a delusion. When i had this truly permanent bliss why did i run around? . It is from me that all happiness was felt temporarily . Happiness didn't come from outside .
No treasure is more worthy than this . No fact is more precious than this. All things come and go and leave me sad. People leave me for their own good and i felt sad. But when i understood that i am in company of the reality itself , should i worry anymore?. It is the end of all seeking.
Incidents affected me . I seemed to like some and dislike some. Some people gave me happiness , but most unhappiness. It was all a delusion. How can i affected by all these?. I now hate neither happiness nor unhappiness. I am only the witness of all happenings. Sorrows come and go . Pleasure come and go. I remain the same always blissful and peaceful. I require nothing .I long for nothing. I know that all these are only temporary. All through my life i have seen so many of them. None of the so called experiences have remained with me. Only i have remained as i am always.
Even in my spiritual life i have been searching for the truth. I searched temples, churches mosques, prayers ceremonies and so on. All changed from time to time. I never understood what to believe and what to trust. Is reality just a name and form?. Every name and form is temporary. It is limited in space and time. How can the absolute be captured in a simple name and form. Is it not a wonderful delusion to think so?. Why should i surrender to an unreal thing? . Is my self the same as the undivided existence awareness inherent in all ?. If so why did i search for anything else?. By finding me havent i found all of the absolute ?. Is it not the eternal truth underlying all phenomenon?
Birth and death , all are just happenings in me. I am always there existing in all as pure awareness. My body goes , my mind changes but the real me ,the pure awareness is eternal. What is there to be sad about?. What is there to long for?. No fear can touch me. Fear is only for one who dislikes change. Anxiety is only for those who anticipate change.
In this moment of revelation i awaken to the pure reality as though from a dream. I watch and admire the beauty of all. I live in meditation absorbing the unity of all .
The first feeling we get about the commonality is the sense of "I". It is the same I who has gone through all of these experiences whatever they are. Now who is this "I". Is it my body ? Is it my mind ?. We can see that neither satisfies us enough. The mind of today is not the same it was yesterday. The body has gone from childhood to youth to old age. So it is not the same. So the sense of I seems to puzzle us. If we accept that it is our body mind system, we will have to accept that it is not the same I that was there before. It is an "I" that is always changing. Cells die , thoughts come and go . So it is not the same . So who is this "I"?. If we accept it is an ever changing "I" it is not common to all our experiences. Just as the experiences have come and gone, this I has also come and gone. So perhaps nothing is permanent. Even this I is not permanent. At least we need to accept that this sense of "I" is not the common factor of all experiences in our life. A childhood body-mind is not possessed now. So that I is now the same as I that is there now. It is a different I that we are experiencing now.
When we analyze further , we do see something that is permanent and common to all our experience. That is the awareness. Now we ask ourselves . Is this awareness changing in all these experiences. You can see that it is not. The presence of awareness never changes . Whatever awareness you had when you were a child is the same that you have now. It is through which you know the body , the mind the thoughts emotions feelings anything. All experiences rise in this awareness. And yet it is not disturbed or changed by them. Come rain or shine the awareness is the same. It has neither gender nor any emotions or feelings. It is indeed the same all through our life. So the commonality of all experiences is the presence of awareness. Many roles have come and gone but awareness never assumes any of them. It just watches them. How did we neglect it ?. What happened to the poor awareness?. It has always been with us never changing never leaving us , and yet we neglected it for the sake of something that was changing and affecting us all the time.
This simple fact that awareness is the commonality and non changing aspect of all experience is enough to liberate us. It is what should have been called the "I". When i see it, i immediately see how all experiences have not affected me. All of them are just arising in me . I never change . By being myself , i can be liberated from all. What a delusion it all was?. Just by understanding who i really am is the only knowledge that is required.
What am i searching for?. What am I seeking in life?. What treasures and riches await me?. Where is the illusory happiness that i long for?. No experience can give me lasting happiness. No wealth can give me enough of riches. All looks promising only when i have a delusion. When i had this truly permanent bliss why did i run around? . It is from me that all happiness was felt temporarily . Happiness didn't come from outside .
No treasure is more worthy than this . No fact is more precious than this. All things come and go and leave me sad. People leave me for their own good and i felt sad. But when i understood that i am in company of the reality itself , should i worry anymore?. It is the end of all seeking.
Incidents affected me . I seemed to like some and dislike some. Some people gave me happiness , but most unhappiness. It was all a delusion. How can i affected by all these?. I now hate neither happiness nor unhappiness. I am only the witness of all happenings. Sorrows come and go . Pleasure come and go. I remain the same always blissful and peaceful. I require nothing .I long for nothing. I know that all these are only temporary. All through my life i have seen so many of them. None of the so called experiences have remained with me. Only i have remained as i am always.
Even in my spiritual life i have been searching for the truth. I searched temples, churches mosques, prayers ceremonies and so on. All changed from time to time. I never understood what to believe and what to trust. Is reality just a name and form?. Every name and form is temporary. It is limited in space and time. How can the absolute be captured in a simple name and form. Is it not a wonderful delusion to think so?. Why should i surrender to an unreal thing? . Is my self the same as the undivided existence awareness inherent in all ?. If so why did i search for anything else?. By finding me havent i found all of the absolute ?. Is it not the eternal truth underlying all phenomenon?
Birth and death , all are just happenings in me. I am always there existing in all as pure awareness. My body goes , my mind changes but the real me ,the pure awareness is eternal. What is there to be sad about?. What is there to long for?. No fear can touch me. Fear is only for one who dislikes change. Anxiety is only for those who anticipate change.
In this moment of revelation i awaken to the pure reality as though from a dream. I watch and admire the beauty of all. I live in meditation absorbing the unity of all .
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