When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change’ Max Planck founder of Quantum theory
Awakening is not a sudden event as we believe it. It is a process. More correctly it is a process and an event. For some it may be a sudden shift in perspective. For some it may be a slow gradual change. But we need to remember awakening is for the mind, not for the self. Self is already the self which neither needs awakening nor anything in this world.
We have already seen that our mind wants us to believe that there is an I which is the center of our thought system. It is this fictitious I which seems to be affected by Life. So the first clue comes from the realization that there is no one actually affected . We need not fight the situations in life. We need not argue, be resentful or dislike anything. Because whatever is happening is not pertaining to any particular entity . It only appears so. When we see the happenings in the universe, do we feel that it is happening to anyone?. No. We just see it as happenings. When a cloud dissolves and pour as rain are we really sad that the cloud is no longer there?. No. We see it as a happening in the stream of events dependent on so many things. Similar to this all the happenings that are perceived are also appearance happening to nobody. Life is just flowing.
Once this is realized we first tend to be curious on the happenings in life. We see them just like watching a movie. Then we tend to reverse this and try to see. To whom is this being shown?. Is that viewer affected by the scenes of life?. We see immediately in order the stream of events be as they are it needs a viewer who is unaffected by them. Consider this . Suppose you are in a cinema theater and you are shown a movie. Suppose you were affected by the incidents in the movie. Would you be able to see the movie any longer?. You would be running around trying to solve the issue. right?. So a viewer is not in the movie , but out of it. He has to be in order to be a viewer.
So you see these aspects. In all life you have experienced so many incidents and so many transformations. However there seems to be something that is remaining the same irrespective of all these. Otherwise how does that perception happen continuously?. Now ask yourself. Who is this entity. Is it a thought in the mind?. Is it the body?. You can see that neither of them is competent enough to be called unaffected. The body is no longer the same from what it was. Nor is this mind. Yet we are the same viewer all through. There seems to be an authentic presence of something beyond the temporary things.
So from realizing through self inquiry that there is nothing called I in the mind, to the unchanging presence we are independent of body and mind, is the slow recognition of truth. However this realization is not something new. It is a discovery. Not an invention. So that is why they say there is nothing to attain. You just realize who you are really instead of the impostor you were pretending to be. Dropping the cast is all that is required.
Now comes a slow realization that the sense of real I is a formless one. Wherever you turn around , there is a presence of that formless awareness. Look at the room, look far beyond. There is no space or time in which the formless existence of me was not present. The very fact that it is a presence means that it has to be there all the time. It is this endless, timeless essence of knowing that I am,
I am not this body and mind or any concept in it. I am just expressing through this body. But I am also expressing myself in the endless bodies and things. There is nothing that is excluded
From the perspective of this formless presence there is a new vision. There are happenings which may not be right from a egoistic perspective like you loose lot of money, loose a job, loose a near and dear and so on, but there is a feeling that it is something that can be accepted too as an appearance. The formlessness can never be affected . Only a form is affected by incidents. If we have existed for ever, how can a silly incident modify me?. How can even death touch me?. There is a feeling and vision beyond the mortality.
Meditation and self inquiry are the primary tools of exploration. But there are two perspectives. For the mind ,Meditation is an action to do. While for the self it is not an action. Meditation becomes a noun for the self. It is what we are. For the self there are no objects or verbs. There is only a noun. A singular noun. So meditation is that noun.Self is always one. And there are no actions. All actions are appearances in it. So all the thoughts emotions feelings shown are appearances in the self or meditation.We then vanish as a form and become truly formless presence. From the analogy of the movie, we are the screen in which the movie unfolds. So the screen is watching the movie with the knowledge that a movie is just a modification of its basic formless presence. Once the mind rests in its source we therefore become meditation itself.
Awakening is not a sudden event as we believe it. It is a process. More correctly it is a process and an event. For some it may be a sudden shift in perspective. For some it may be a slow gradual change. But we need to remember awakening is for the mind, not for the self. Self is already the self which neither needs awakening nor anything in this world.
We have already seen that our mind wants us to believe that there is an I which is the center of our thought system. It is this fictitious I which seems to be affected by Life. So the first clue comes from the realization that there is no one actually affected . We need not fight the situations in life. We need not argue, be resentful or dislike anything. Because whatever is happening is not pertaining to any particular entity . It only appears so. When we see the happenings in the universe, do we feel that it is happening to anyone?. No. We just see it as happenings. When a cloud dissolves and pour as rain are we really sad that the cloud is no longer there?. No. We see it as a happening in the stream of events dependent on so many things. Similar to this all the happenings that are perceived are also appearance happening to nobody. Life is just flowing.
Once this is realized we first tend to be curious on the happenings in life. We see them just like watching a movie. Then we tend to reverse this and try to see. To whom is this being shown?. Is that viewer affected by the scenes of life?. We see immediately in order the stream of events be as they are it needs a viewer who is unaffected by them. Consider this . Suppose you are in a cinema theater and you are shown a movie. Suppose you were affected by the incidents in the movie. Would you be able to see the movie any longer?. You would be running around trying to solve the issue. right?. So a viewer is not in the movie , but out of it. He has to be in order to be a viewer.
So you see these aspects. In all life you have experienced so many incidents and so many transformations. However there seems to be something that is remaining the same irrespective of all these. Otherwise how does that perception happen continuously?. Now ask yourself. Who is this entity. Is it a thought in the mind?. Is it the body?. You can see that neither of them is competent enough to be called unaffected. The body is no longer the same from what it was. Nor is this mind. Yet we are the same viewer all through. There seems to be an authentic presence of something beyond the temporary things.
So from realizing through self inquiry that there is nothing called I in the mind, to the unchanging presence we are independent of body and mind, is the slow recognition of truth. However this realization is not something new. It is a discovery. Not an invention. So that is why they say there is nothing to attain. You just realize who you are really instead of the impostor you were pretending to be. Dropping the cast is all that is required.
Now comes a slow realization that the sense of real I is a formless one. Wherever you turn around , there is a presence of that formless awareness. Look at the room, look far beyond. There is no space or time in which the formless existence of me was not present. The very fact that it is a presence means that it has to be there all the time. It is this endless, timeless essence of knowing that I am,
I am not this body and mind or any concept in it. I am just expressing through this body. But I am also expressing myself in the endless bodies and things. There is nothing that is excluded
From the perspective of this formless presence there is a new vision. There are happenings which may not be right from a egoistic perspective like you loose lot of money, loose a job, loose a near and dear and so on, but there is a feeling that it is something that can be accepted too as an appearance. The formlessness can never be affected . Only a form is affected by incidents. If we have existed for ever, how can a silly incident modify me?. How can even death touch me?. There is a feeling and vision beyond the mortality.
Meditation and self inquiry are the primary tools of exploration. But there are two perspectives. For the mind ,Meditation is an action to do. While for the self it is not an action. Meditation becomes a noun for the self. It is what we are. For the self there are no objects or verbs. There is only a noun. A singular noun. So meditation is that noun.Self is always one. And there are no actions. All actions are appearances in it. So all the thoughts emotions feelings shown are appearances in the self or meditation.We then vanish as a form and become truly formless presence. From the analogy of the movie, we are the screen in which the movie unfolds. So the screen is watching the movie with the knowledge that a movie is just a modification of its basic formless presence. Once the mind rests in its source we therefore become meditation itself.